In the spirit of telling it like it is, I am going to share something 100% honest:
My ego is acting up lately.
There is nothing like work stuff to get the ego going. I had sort of forgotten that, in my many years as a stay-at-home mom. A couple things have happened recently where someone has either 1) treated me in a somewhat condescending manner or 2) inadvertantly taken credit for my work. Back when I was a volunteer at the school, that stuff either didn’t happen or didn’t bother me. Now I find myself really wanting people to KNOW how smart I am, what a good job I do, how much I contribute, etc. I know on the one hand that that is part of what you’re supposed to do at work, in the interest of career advancement – on the other hand, I’m not even sure I want to advance in this career! I like what I do now and do I really need more responsibility and pressure?
The ego says YES! You want to be important! You want to be irreplaceable! You want a better job title! You want a raise!
The heart says who cares? You know you are contributing! You know you make a difference! You know you are helping the kids! You know a raise won’t be that significant!
So amusing, watching this internal dialogue ping-ponging back and forth…